My Name is Not My Name

By: Rida Sahridah

Individual Essay 2: Humanistic Study

Name is a symbol for me. Symbol that only belongs to one person. Symbol which is relates to all about the person. Name will connect to person face. However, sometimes we easily forget name of someone or we only remember face of someone. Even in this world probably there are million people which has same name. So, how about my name?

I am the only one who is name Rida in my college as long as I remember. Nobody will calls Rida and then two persons will turn a head in the same time. I think that is my favorite part, only me. I just so thankful to Alloh and my family for this blessing.

A name has history as same as my name. If I tell the story, it will be the longest story ever. I never asked about my history name to my parents, but they were told me like a fairy tale. I knew that my lovely grandfather gave this wonderful name to me. When I born my mother asked to somebody about an ideal name for a little baby and then my grandfather did it. As usual I never asked about meaning of my name, but my parents were told me again. “Ikhlas” is general meaning of my name. “Ikhlas” means sincere.

Rida Sahridah is my full name. It contains an ethnic identity. How could be? One of characteristics from my ethnic that has repeatative name. Rida Sahridah is a pepeatation like Asep Surasep. Defenetly, I am Sundanese. My ethic is Sundanese. An ethic which is exists in Indonesia. So, I am not only Sundanese but also Indonesian.

Name also means hope. I was thinking that my family wants me to be a good person by giving this name. Hope which comes from my name is my power to be exist in this world. However, name will never brings me to happiness, but good attitude will. I am a girl who uses hijab or scarf or “jilbab”. Hopefully, I will be a good person ever.

My name is not my name because sometimes I confuse what I will do with this beautiful name. I have to be perfect by this name or almost probably. Anyhow, I ever feel uncomfortable by my name. I want to change it differently. In additional, I born on 19 March or 2 Ramadhan in moslem year, Hijriah. I ever told my mother to change my name become Rida Ramadhani. The reason is because I born on Ramadhan month. I thought that name would be more meaningful, but I was wrong. My best name is Rida Sahridah which gave from my lovely grandfather and agreed by my parents. For a thousand times proudly introduce my name is Rida sahridah.

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